Bedtime Talk

Master and i had a great conversation last night while W/we were laying in bed. Master expressed a concern that W/we may not be where W/we want to be at this point in O/our relationship.  i think Master may have been surprised to learn that i am quite happy with where W/we are.

W/we talked about varying degrees of control prior to my relocation here and W/we both had interest in exploring the hardercore aspects of M/s. Over the past thirty days, W/we've found a niche that works for U/us, and while W/we aren't having all kinds of kinky sex, i'm very happy with where W/we are right now.

Personally i don't see a reason to change something that is working out so well. But then again, it's not up to me to make that decision for U/us. Master has decision making authority as to how He guides O/our relationship. i couldn't be happier right now.

i'm serving a Man domestically that i am madly in love with and there are aspects of M/s prevalent in O/our daily lives. Master did something for me yesterday that i am so unbelievably grateful for, that words cannot describe, that will strengthen my value to O/our relationship in the long run. He's truly giving me the fresh start that i so badly needed.

Even before the breakdown, my life had spun out of control. i was an alcoholic with two stints of time in Alcoholics Anonymous as well as a regular drug user. Master controls how much alcohol i consume and i haven't been drunk since the Ravens won the Super Bowl back in February. i haven't used any drugs since i've been here though Master every now and then revisits the subject of marijuana use. i wasn't a daily smoker of marijuana and it was a resource i used to relax prior to the breakdown to cope with the stresses of everyday life. Financially speaking, i was in ruins. i was on the verge of bankruptcy and Master has laid a foundation to turn my life around in that regard.

i am very much looking forward O/our New Year's Eve celebration tonight. W/we're going to a gay owned and operated restaurant for sushi before going to the 501, the leather bar here in Indianapolis.

Lastly, i'd like to dedicate this post to a Man that will also hold a very special place in my heart, Daddy Jim Raymond of Washington, D.C. who passed away last night at the age of fifty-six. Daddy Jim was a well respected leatherman all across the United States who took pride in mentoring submissives such as myself. He taught me how to service my Dominants better and taught me the fundamentals of Safe Sane and Consensual. Daddy Jim, You provided me with many memories that will be with me the rest of my natural life. Rest In Peace my friend.